arbie's statement of disillusionment yesterday has greatly affected me and it still hasn't left me today. that was around 4:30 in the afternoon. mine is caused by another thing entirely different from his, details of which i won't mention here.
i wasn't feling really up the afternoon that i went to the tambayan. i guess it rubbed off on me but i didn't feel all the way down until after our GA in up subol. words were said but they weren't meant to offend or reprimand anyone in any way. but the fact that there are many things i wanna do in life and many more things that i have to do (due to obligatoin or a promise or whatever) and i can't do all of them - i guess that's why a big, black cloud has been hanging over me. so i decided i won't go to up optics' acquaintance party anymore today and consequently, no longer pursue my planned application into the org. i also no longer want to go to mc's christmas party if ever it will push through, given the state of things.
i was feeling significantly lighter or happier last monday after our class in philo. we watched Miracle on 34th Street, a feel-good Christmas movie. i was quite happy that christmas is here already. then arbie's statement. i actually read a blog entry of his mondy night and i think that's what started it coz' i wasn't really feeling good come tuesday.
well, the things that life offers you. i wanna get rid of this. i got to talk to someone later.
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