Sunday, April 15, 2007

dreaming, walking, remembering

i lost all the reflective mood i was in before i turned on the pc to lay those thoughts bare this very early hours of a new day. yes, i've slept some two hours when i got home from BAI-APDC where i'm currently spending my practicum hours, so i'll be awake for a few more hours before i wake up again for my sunday tasks. one of those sunday tasks is going to greenhills, or elsewhere, where i can buy cheap collared shirts to wear for my daily trip to APDC. wearing collared shirts is one of the requirements, besides waking up at 5 am in the morning so that i can have breakfast and buy food for my lunch, which i haven't been able to do yet since the wednesday (april 11) we started spending the whole day there.

today was like the FS 178 days all over again when we had fruitcake or ham production in the PFP. this is because the Meat Processing trainees did luncheon meat and corned beef. the activity that most reminded us of it was when we cleaned up the lab during the time when the trainees were somewhere having discussions about the activities they did in APDC for three days (they started thursday, where the four of us practicum students - cindy, diana, ron and i - were sitting in). we not only had to apply disinfectant to the floors and walls, we also had to scrape the tables and the floor dry. although the total floor area is smaller than the PFP, it was still harder work, especially since there were only four of us, sometimes three. and since no stools are provided in the work area, are feet were dead tired after the day. we only got to sit during our snack and lunch break, and then we had to walk all the way across tullahan bridge before we got to sit in another massive traffic jam to get home.

one unlucky thing that has befallen us is that the tullahan bridge is currently under repair. the first time we went there, tuesday, the route was redirected into a private subdivision and on the way out, the jeepney would pass by APDC, so i thought we were lucky for this repair. normally, one would pass tullahan bridge, and get off somewhere a bit further off, but which is some yards' walk from the bridge, and walk through the street at the corner. when wednesday came around, there was no more route through the subdivision, and we had to start walking some distance off from the bridge since during those mornings, there was heavy traffic of empty jeepneys before the bridge, so we had no choice but to walk. i don't mind the walking, if not for the heat, and the fact that i sweat easily, even with little sunshine, which is impossible with this summer season and global warming, and only five minutes' walk.

anyhow, that's it for the practicum so far. unfortunately, to complete those required 300 hours, we have to go there everyday - five days a week, till june 1. and oh yeah, we got to chat with two trainees awhile ago who also took up BS FT in UP Diliman and i found out that they knew my cousin ate mm. they had student numbers starting with 94, the year i started grade 2. however, i wasn't able to get their names since we were chatting well before lunch break, and after the break, we separated ways, them in the session room and us in the meat processing lab.

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my roommate for the past month has left just this friday. she'll be finishing her one-year course in IT at the UP ITTC by april 18. sadly, i wasn't able to see her off. also, i'll have no more source for bleach or other anime episodes or japanese series. she gladly updates me with what's new in her manga/anime/japanovela library and i wholeheartedly burn myself a copy for future viewing, since ittc students could download them freely and quickly at the japanese-funded ittc computers. lucky anime addict, that girl.

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i wonder how my past roommates are doing. ate zye is working somewhere, but we haven't been keeping in touch much. alessa is in texas, taking part of her practicum. mars is also having her practicum right now with a semiconductors packing company and i'm glad she got in, for when she was telling me the story before, it seemed that it was impossible for her to be accepted in that company.

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i had a weird dream recently. it was that dream that woke me at 5 am on a friday, when i could sleep late since we were allowed to absent ourselves to complete our summer registration. in my very vivid dream, the details of which i remembered the moment i woke up, i had a boyfriend, and the transition from friend to boyfriend came about quite quickly, since the guy, a familiar face among my blockmates, just asked me about it. i gave some explanation on why we shouldn't be a couple, but we ended up being together by the end of the day. the next thing i remember, the face of the guy changed into one of the classmates i've had this second semester. this was a younger guy, and the dream left me feeling like a sort of babysitter because of one really weird incident in the dream sequence. hehe.. what's really weird about it is probably the strange feeling of having someone care for me, which came with the added cost of me kinda looking after the guy since he was younger than me (he's like in second year right now, haha), the feeling that yeah, having a relationship with a younger guy (even if only in dreams) could turn out into or feel like a babysitting job, and also the bliss i get when i'm with him since my parents don't know about it, although there was one scene where my mom was kinda just making small talk with me and him. really weird.. so weird that his face has been lying around in my head since friday.

maybe because i've been tired all week that i haven't been having dreams, except that friday morning. haha, i'm wishing for more along the same story genre Ü

p.s. there was a soundtrack to the dream. it's the song beautiful by flipperstick :)

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