and so we come to the contradiction. contrary to my strong conviction that i'll be once again back home in Pangasinan this weekend, i'm stuck here in up, enjoying my lonesome, posting on this blog. i said i wouldn't go home anymore since i have lots of exams this coming week: tomorrow for gen micro, on wednesday pe - our finals, thursday - geog 1, friday - math 53, saturday the discovery dive, sunday - the last exm for chem. however, i've only started studying for my exam tomorrow. hmmm...i'm still quite regretting and quite ok that i'm here. bbrrrr.. it's really cold in this computer center.
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my roomie posted this on friendster. i know so many can relate. i don't think i'm one but hell, i'm not from the other side either. lots of typo errors and spacing constraints, mind you. it wouldn't fit in one complete post if the spaces weren't deleted.
A MEANTIME GIRL
She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down becauseshe's willing to lend an ear and be a friend.She's not the one you call when you need adate to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's theone you spend time with between girlfriends,before you find "The One". Youknow, the one who you keep around in themeantime.She's not one of the guys, not atomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real"woman, either.She's not bitchy enough, moodyenough,or sexy enough to be seen in that light.She's too laid-back, too easily amused by thesame things your male buddies are amused by.She's too understanding,she doesn't make youfeel nervous or excited the way a "real" womandoes. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, andattractive enough that when you're lonely orhorny and need intimate female companionship,she'll do just fine. You don't have to wine anddine her because she knows the real youalready, and you don't have any facades tokeep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're nottrying to get anything of substance out of her.She's not easy, but you know that she caresabout you and is attracted to you, and thatshe'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or thesituation, that she'll be able to cope with thefact that this isn't the beginning of a relationshipor that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't botherher that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with thewoman you've been mooning over for weekswho finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool. why can't all women be like that?! But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the funyou two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs.she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, orhas a big birthmark on her forehead. Whateverthe reason, somehow life has given her a lot ofreally great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman.So she remains forever the funny friend, thesteadfast companion, the secret lover, and yougo on searching for your goddess who willsomehow be everything you ever wanted in awoman.You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doorswith her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads ofeveryone in the room.But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do. She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact,she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.
I'm a Meantime Girl. I don't know the reason,really, and I don't even care. I just want to let every guy whoever had the good fortuneto have a Meantime Girl know that we may be a lot of fun bt we cry too.And someday we won't be around.
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